the Story goes on and on and on.......

*SIGH*

The prank on my parents-in-law worked perfectly, it had the result much desired. I'm satisfied, but their way of comprehension is very bad.

1st day - Gone online on msn and told them their son is in mental hospital and i'll sue them and leave them on the street with no cent in the hand (same how they kicked their son out of the house), i threatened, "punched & kicked" in all sides, expressing through my words lots of feelings. And then gone offline.

2nd day - I was still offline, gave them time to think about what i said.
In the evening, my father calls me and asked me with a voice of disbelief and like he didn't want it to be true what he was going to ask. He asked if my bf is in mental hospital because his sister called desperately. I told him the whole plan and he agreed to keep quit and be a player in my story.

3rd day - Gone online, and this time his mum asked me to give the address of the mental hospital, i kept on trying to make her understand the gravity of the situation and that her son is gone and her money will have the same destiny.
I was insulted and all that, offcourse i was hurt, but i was just acting.

4th day - Day passes on without even remembering her, and my bf called me from his work that the Greek Embassy's consulator tried to contact him at work. I was owned, how far his mum would go. So, he called his mum and told her it was all a prank.

5th-6th day - Days passed without doing anything about the situation. His mum tries to give lectures, i informed her it was a nice experiment on all of them (no matter the number of people she involved, because my father was called several times per day) an experiment to see their behaviour, just like guinea pigs, but they are humans. i wanted to see if they will have the same feelings as my bf for the past 2 years. I'm not sure it really worked, because it's like talking to a stone... and object.


Adults expect to be respected, but they never respect young adults, that's why young adults are trying to get their way through all this shit in life and when they have the same mindless mentality, they will be accepted.

Respect if you want to be respected.

Words won't reach adults.... well, then i don't want to be one.

pEace!

Been drumming every day now, i'm not writing any story for a while. My talent goes where ever i lay my finger.
I'm going through lot lately.
Playing pranks on my in-laws. Not like it will benefit me, it's just like talking to the wall. This time i am not writing, but performing a story, and up to this minute, everything goes acording to my plan, the actors are in place.
I wonder how this situation will turn out.
-in a fight between my bf and them
-in a question much awaited "forgive me?"
-in the relationship blooming
OR
-bliss ignorance

Well, as i don't care, i'll be just the pawn in the game. The game has no players, just the game pieces, and the book open showing where the next move should be performed for 3 days.

This idea struck me while reading "Wuthering Heights", when Linton was moaning how much he suffers and Cathy cries, thinking she hurt him. Ah, Linton can be such a whore, not like his mum, but peevish like his father.

Suhshine.

It's sunny outside! YAY!
it's very HAWTH!!!!! and a bit windy.

I'm back to drumming from one week, and oh, i'm happy about it. I improved a lot in those 7 days, more than in one year.

Guess i can say bye bye to depression, and i should put on my door steps the anxiety and apathy.

i'll give my best ;)

My love. My Paranoia.

I always have that creepy feeling that somebody stalks and follows me. Oh, i'm so paranoid.
Few days ago thiefs broke into the neighbour's house (which is empty). It happend in the night time, so i wonder how come i didn't heard it, i was sleeping in the living room.
But other thoughts came flying in my head.......................
What if that house was my house........................

What if my house is next? What if i am home when they break in? I better run for my life.... haha

I'm getting disturbed, i really feel it. After all, i live in the worst place ever. IT's like a place for people with mental issues, i failed to realise it, i was in deep depression too.

Now's time to get the hell out of here!!! FAST!

Repetition

"you are me and i am you"
but when they put you around me
you lost yourself
you run confused in nothingness
regret caught me,
the way you have become.



Who would had guessed that to can achieve something you have to REPEAT, REPEAT, REPEAT.
Even your every day life is a repetition. A repetition which doesn't bring the satisfaction of achievement once we die. If you want to be something in life, you got to repeat and never give up, and one day you will be there too, where few people are. You are alone, and always will be, your family and friends, whoever supports you, are just shadows for you to succeed.
Go crazy, be free. You April Fool!

Karma-sama

Somehow i try not to think about karma too much, everything bad you do, comes back to you, sometimes surprising you.
I've hurt lot's of people in my life, and i try from now on to be the little angel and stay like that forever. well, in the long run it will pay off nicely.
"everything bad you do" ..., well perhaps everything YOU THINK IS BAD and you do.

From now on i'll try having more positive thoughts.

Imagine, Vizualize, Portray it, have strong will power and then just DO IT!
I hope for a brighter future, but like a dumb human i'm afraid of changes, time to take a step further on the ladder.

Woooohooo!

I had the best weekend EVER!

My depression is gone, and it was worth the time that my boyfriend spent just for me. We booked in a hotel far away from where we live, walked around the town, he bought me clothes, ate what i wanted :D, gone to make up lessons, well just that was a failure. It was just like a nice dream. I didnt felt happy with all that spendings, but in the end i realised that no other guy would spend that much money on his GF.

I Love my Boyfriend!

Thank's Andi